and we countdown

i have officially 12 days to go.

well, to be technical, 8 working days to go.

and time is draaaagggginggggg...

i have almost nothing to do in the office. its ridiculous to be bringing in new accounts. and i am in no mood to do it either.

which means. i get to rot from 9-6 every day from now on. sort of. how different is this from my previous job? none whatsoever. SIGH.

i must be the only person in the world who is DYING to work. to be so busy that i cant think cant breathe cant eat.

should i hate my parents from having me in the year of the ox? i dont think i know anyone else more workaholic. (but still earn so litle) zzz

gotta learn to work smart! and shop less. )= i have to get back the control that i once had. the amazing power of walking away from a sale WITHOUT BUYING ANYTHING.

*sheepish*

and im proud to say i did! (zhen, i deserve a pat on the back)

im so bored everyday at work, yet so busy going out at night. i think im neglecting my skin. i see myself ageing.

ugh.

gahhhh

7 more hours of work to go.

save me.

oops i did it again

dear sir,

 

it is with deepest regret that i am to inform you -I QUIT.

 

with best regards

 

Queen tinky.

 

 

namaste

and once again we have left this blog neglected. our apologies.

our lives have been one crazy mess of parties and work and celebrations these few months.

now lets see, we had bird's hen's night. on christmas, followed by her ROM and her wedding lunch, then yizhen;s hen's night, and her ROM and then their subsequent honeymoon. New year, Yizhen leaving for scotland again. all in a matter of 2 weeks. and barely a few weeks later, chinese new year came. and gone.

any wonder why i was sick for so long? i was down with food poisoning. a classic case. merlion with a pipe broken says bird. then followed by the flu, and an unknown infection that left me with a fever for 7 days. and then i finally went for liquid nitrogen treatment. to rid meself of the warts i've had for the longest time. and i must say. not a moment too soon.

i havent let up ever since.

im planning to change my job.

AGAIN.

so many choices to make.

do i resign, go back to locuming while taking a break and end up in new york for a bit.

do i resign after i find another job. which leaves me no time to go for my new york trip.

do i just go on sabbatical and live the way the wanderers do. nary a care in the world.

that unfortunately. is not me. im too much of a neurotic. a control freak. the one who should be living on antacids and migraine pills. but as luck has it, im free of heartburn and head aches.

heart aches. perhaps. but thats another matter.

to change my career again. to change from one industry to another. increasingly cut throat, increasingly stressful.

somehow. i think im relishing it.

time to focus on something more fruitful. then this whimsical matters of the heart.

but i wont go into that today.

relationships, and the mayhem it ensures, must be left far far behind.

emotional baggages, and the fines they accrue, to be discarded and forgotten.

to you, all i can say is sorry sorry and sorry thrice.

i forgot how therapeutic this could be.

then again, i almost forgot how life should be.


relax, im not depressed or anything. im actually enjoying life a lot now. Just that. sometimes, u need to hide in a corner for some peace and quiet. (try getting that one facebook)

i almost forgot about this little oasis that we have. i'm suppose to be working. but the unmotivated me is stifled in the office.

sign to move on yes??

Get well soon Selina!

Flying off to Bali!!!!!

Green with envy..

Sent by GK-Blackberry

Some one defaced mu wedding scroll

Fashion Shot @ MBS Level 75

My small tiffany collection :)

and then

it was like she was never gone.

and our world is complete again. (=

My new love...

moolah management

my sister is a financial adviser.

how come i turned out to be such a spendthrift??

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Loving every minute of it. heeheehee

i know that both my sister and yizhen are most displeased.. erps!

i promise i will start saving up next year! for my non existent wedding and marital home. wahahahaha

did you hear that??

that was the sound of time whooshing by.

 

How did it get to the end of november already?!?!

 

We are almost at the end of 2010?!?!

 

oh god. i almost dread the day that i will have to look back at my past entries and look for my 2010 resolutions. I wonder how many i have completed.

 

maybe lets not go there. I have another month of denial.

 

have been so crazily bogged down and busy with work (balancing 2 jobs is insane. the only thing that keeps me grounded is probably the money involved. NOT the best of motivation, but still.. )

 

weddings to plan. (its unofficially my third job)

 

hens night to plan  (fourth job)

 

dating (um.. fifth job?) on hindsight I really have to figure out what I want. This serial monogamist thing is not my thing. how on earth did i end up being a relationship pinball?? the number of guys that appear in and out of my life is ridiculous! (for my own standards, and i'm not comparing it with anyone) and i happen to only have bird and zhen to compare with.. and they are like.. swans?? the one partner mate for life thing.. i happen to be typing this while working in the store. pardon if i dont make much sense sometimes, since im being interrupted by customers left right centre and i lose my train of thought..

 

as usual i have to figure out what i want with my life. (i have a sneaky suspicion that if i were to look back at resolutions 2010 i will find the exact same phrase in there)

Unfortunately, the lack of money and the abundance of obligations prevents me from indulging in a pursuit of self awareness (unlike liz gilbert- of EPL fame no, nothing to do with soccer.. ) perhaps that would be under resolution 2011...

 

this sense of discontentment with life has bothered me for the better part of the year. and it doesnt seem to be going away! nothing I have done has given me a sense of satisfaction that life is going smoothly for me. Rather, every step i take (shall cheesily add in every move i make) is making me even more confused than ever. I seem to be running around in circles, not really finding an end, never really seeing the light. I think i had more direction when i first graduated than i am now (am remember HOW confused i was then??) the only difference between then and now is probably the number of credit cards i have (coupled with the number of bills and my spending power.. NOT A GOOD SIGN)

 

 

then again, what happens if i really find contentment.. what more can i look for then?

 

 

im so royally screwed.. =S

 

slightly homesick

as the world spins on
as people move on
i remain in stuck in time

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and growing fat >_<


... sigh... feeling slightly demotivated at the moment

My open faced sandwich..

woo its halloween

so its halloween tomorrow. or tonight. or sunday?

whatever, the point is there are tons of parties and what not everywhere.

Was talking to a colleague about it.

his comment?

every day in the office is halloween already...

hahahahaha

aunt agony

for someone as bad as me and as unlucky as me when it comes to relationships, its amazing the amount of good advice i dispense out on the topic recently. well, there;s this one cousin who is in a BAD relationship, and another who just ended a relationship, and i find myself counseling them on a regular basis and praying that my little pearls of wisdom will get through one thick skull and one broken heart.

Will they kill me if they realise i dont exactly practice what i preach?

"you'll forget about it, give it a week"

its been months and i admit, i still think of you. a lot. which is so stupid, because i know you dont and i will remind myself not to as well, which translates to thinking about you to not think about you. *roll eyes*

"be more rational, dont being so emotional"

i used to cry thinking about you. well, i stopped. but there is that occasional twinge of heartache sometimes. but i think im coping very very well. ok, actually i do practise this point quite a lot. maybe i'll eventually turn into a heart of stone..

"DONT contact him. delete him of everything"

*checking his fb profile for the number 234837532394 time today* guilty as charged

"he is not suitable for you. your characters dont match blah blah blah, you will definitely be able to find a better one"

what if that better one never appears? what if i had worked harder in the rls? aiyah, if its the right guy, you wouldnt feel that its work at all. right?

well, there are more that I said, and a lot more that I have done, for both them and myself. and well, I guess we will all grow stronger and better together. (=

from the words of caesar the wise man:

it hurts. i know. crying won't help you.

long way to go. more heartaches to come.





i dread the future. oh boy.

dinner for one

my parents have flown off once again. actually, truth be told, they have been away since friday. but i was so busy i havent had time to register it, until i came home yesterday night to face the most amazing mess in the kitchen and living room. sigh. brothers. cant live with them. i am so tempted to dumo every single one of those dirty bowls and cutlery that they cant be bothered to wash on their bed. for god;s sake. how hard is it to wash a single bowl and chopsticks?? ROAR.

right. my dinner plans tonight got cancelled and Im now faced with a dilemma. should i be inspired by "julie and julia" and cook dinner (i know!! i keep talking about it. but... i just have no time to cook! and im such an embarrassingly bad cook!) or should i be inspired by "table for one" and take myself out to dinner? its not a new concept to me, after all, i used to eat by myself every single day for lunch when i was still working in retail. (we dont have the luxury of working with our colleagues or have decent meal times). But do I rally want to be out in a restaurant by myself on a traditionally date night? watching one nauseating couple after another coo at each other over the dining table? or risk having a home cooked (potentially) bad (overcooked/undercooked/burnt/oversalted) dinner? trust me, i have done all of the listed before.

decisions decisions.. well, there's still.. groan, 7 hours of work to go. still have time think about it.

Eat vinegar

Once in a while, i come across a writer, either through a book, an article, a poem or even a blog that makes me go green with envy. I marvel at the way they phrase themselves, how eloquently expressive they can be, how they are able to play with words to make them flow effortlessly. How they could use the simplest of analogy, to come up with the most amazing of ideas.

Artistic, I will never be. Nor will I ever be the next tang bohu. But I wldnt mind being the chiuxiang I think.

Yoga class in 5 min. May I master the art of clearing my mind. Ommmmmmm

of aches and pains..

did body combat yesterday. oh boy. it was TOUGH!!! i only got through it by imagining i was bashing SOMEONE up. actually, make that many different someones. haha.

and now i weep whenever i climb stairs.

remind me why i'm doing this again?